Blog Category: self

The More You Judge, The More You Sentence Yourself To Prison… And Other Fun Tales

I spent the ages of 7 until 16 in some form of Juvie or foster care, she was telling me. We were standing in front of a fire. There was meat or…

I spent the ages of 7 until 16 in some form of Juvie or foster care, she was telling me. We were standing in front of a fire. There was meat or something in the fire. It smelled bad. It was on the west side of NYC. I was raped every day, she said. I […]

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I Give Myself Permission To…

Oh, I can’t do that. It would be rude. Oh my god, there’s that awkward silence. My parents really want me to at least finish school so I can have “security”. I…

Oh, I can’t do that. It would be rude. Oh my god, there’s that awkward silence. My parents really want me to at least finish school so I can have “security”. I can’t quit this job right when they are going into the busy season. If I leave my job to start a business I […]

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Who Are Your Gatekeepers?

Dear Josie and Mollie (my daughters), Everyone hates you. I mean, I don’t hate you. Most of the time. But teachers hate you. Your future boss hates you (he bribes you to…

Dear Josie and Mollie (my daughters), Everyone hates you. I mean, I don’t hate you. Most of the time. But teachers hate you. Your future boss hates you (he bribes you to work extra hours and then makes a pass at you. Trust me on this one). Your colleagues hate you (if you are demoted, […]

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What Keeps Us In Prison?

I can’t speak for others. But I have 47 years experience of being stuck with me. Fear of people not liking me. Fear of losing money. Who am I? sort of feeling.…

I can’t speak for others. But I have 47 years experience of being stuck with me. Fear of people not liking me. Fear of losing money. Who am I? sort of feeling. Sort of like an imposter syndrome. And everyone will know. Fear I’ll make a decision that hurts someone. There are a lot of […]

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What Does Your Map Look Like Today?

I remember my dad lighting the water rocket and it flew into the sky and all the kids in the neighborhood thought I was the coolest kid. I remember getting off the…

I remember my dad lighting the water rocket and it flew into the sky and all the kids in the neighborhood thought I was the coolest kid. I remember getting off the train a few years ago when my daughter (now a teenager) was little and I took five photos of her running closer and […]

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Dear James at 106: I Hope You Can Read This

Although you probably won’t care. Why would you care what I have to say? — Hi James, you’re 106 years old. Congrats! Boy, I never thought you would get there. You were…

Although you probably won’t care. Why would you care what I have to say? — Hi James, you’re 106 years old. Congrats! Boy, I never thought you would get there. You were too stressed. It’s not like you’re an athlete or anything. I’m writing you this letter but you don’t even give a shit. You’re […]

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I Shouldn't Want to Be Liked So Much

I went to a dinner the other night where I was the featured guest and by the end of the evening almost everyone there hated me. It feels bad to be so…

I went to a dinner the other night where I was the featured guest and by the end of the evening almost everyone there hated me. It feels bad to be so obviously hated and I always want to be liked. I probably want that too much. The reason I was a featured guest is […]

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